This year has been Amazing for me. I know, I know, it sounds insane. We’re dealing with COVID-19, riots, protests, an out of this world President, deaths, business closures, poor economy, and so much more. It kind of sounds like World War.
But for me it’s been peaceful. I’ve found my confidence again that I lost once upon a time ago. It’s been tranquility. I finished my drama-fiction novel that I’ve been working on since 2016. I’ve gained new friends and lost a few. I’ve expanded a few relationships. And I’ve realized my full value and self-worth. I've lost weight and started to practice more self-care.
I’ve been able to do things this year that I haven’t been able to do for quite some time. You see when you are in and out of hospitals, you’re always in pain, you’re always experiencing body aches, and it’s hard for you to walk, shower and drive. That becomes the norm for you, so this PANDEMIC crisis is nothing. I will seriously take anything over having LUPUS. That’s how bad it is. That’s how much I’ve suffered my whole life. I’ve cried tears daily and been in complete agony. Many times I didn’t want to live. I used to beg for GOD to take my life. That how much I've suffered.
There were times I couldn’t work or take care of my son. There were times that I needed help walking to the restroom and taking a shower. There were times I wasn’t able to drive. I’ve lost my ability to speak before, walk, move, and even think. I’ve lost my memory before. So this, this array of current events is GOLD to me. I’ll take it and I won’t complain. I remember laying in hospital beds praying that I get to live a normal life and go home and be healthy.
So you see why I’m still happy? I’m soaking every bit of greatness in. Because you see these good moments don’t come often for me. The entire 2020, I haven’t been in a hospital. I haven’t been in serious amounts of pain. I’ve been able to work and be independent. That’s rare for me. So I’m sorry if you all are having a hard time. I am not. LUPUS is my hard time. Any day with no signs of suffering is a GREAT day for me!
I am grateful for times like this where I look good, feel good and live well. Nothing else matters but this. These rare moments is what counts for me. I thank God every day for these moments because I’m highly aware that at any given moment, I could lose this moment. So I’m very humble, very grateful and very appreciative of what the year 2020 has done for me.
I always tell people, “APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE, BEFORE YOU NO LONGER HAVE IT.” Just as fast as you get it, you can lose it just as easily. In the meantime, I will continue to GLOW, GROW, and soak all of this GREATNESS in. Stay Blessed folks! And do NOT take anything in life for granted. Remember things could get worse!